I had a conversation today with a dear friend who is in the depth of depression and was talking semi-suicidal. Not anything immediate, but still disturbing. Later, I saw a post on Real Euphoria that talked about the issue of suicide (http://realeuphoria.com/?p=1101). As one who has had near encounters with suicide, I believe Euphoric is correct in saying that suicide seems to be the answer to two things: A feeling of hopelessness and/or an uncontrollable need to stop the pain. Those were certainly what I was feeling at the time, particularly the latter.
In retrospect, I know I was not thinking clearly and was letting my depression and sense of hopelessness take control. I also was failing to live in the present and was totally stressing myself out about things that in the final analysis did not matter. Sometimes we let social constructs and our conditioning patterns dictate who we are instead of valuing our own uniqueness and talents. My friend is an amazingly good hearted person, but sadly lets his difficult past blind him to the opportunities the future can hold.
I hope my friend will realize that someone does love him and that someone does want to be with him and someone is always willing to help him.
The other thing that struck me in Euphoric's post was this statistic: A recent Australian study found that gay-identified young men (aged 18 - 24) were 3.7 times more likely to attempt suicide. In the U.S it is up to 14 times more likely. This certainly speaks to how screwed up the USA is and what the message of hate put out so frequently by the Christianists and false Christians can do to young males.
A website with many links to information can be found here: http://www.psycom.net/depression.central.suicide.html